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Fiona Apple Cancels Her Current Tour [Pic & Text]

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It”s 6pm on Friday,and I”m writing to a few thousand friends I have not met yet.

I am writing to ask them to change our plans and meet a little while later.

Here”s the thing.

I have a dog Janet, and she”s been ill for almost two years now, as a tumor has been idling in her chest, growing ever so slowly. She”s almost 14 years old now.I got her when she was 4 months old. I was 21 then ,an adult offi

cially – and she was my child.
She is a pitbull, and was found in Echo Park, with a rope around her neck, and bites all over her ears and face.
She was the one the dogfighters use to puff up the confidence of the contenders.
She”s almost 14 and I”ve never seen her start a fight ,or bite, or even growl, so I can understand why they chose her for that awful role. She”s a pacifist.
Janet has been the most consistent relationship of my adult life, and that is just a fact.
We”ve lived in numerous houses, and jumped a few make shift families, but it”s always really been the two of us.
She slept in bed with me, her head on the pillow, and she accepted my hysterical, tearful face into her chest, with her paws around me, every time I was heartbroken, or spirit-broken, or just lost, and as years went by, she let me take the role of her child, as I fell asleep, with her chin resting above my head.
She was under the piano when I wrote songs, barked any time I tried to record anything, and she was in the studio with me all the time we recorded the last album.
The last time I came back from tour, she was spry as ever, and she”s used to me being gone for a few weeks every 6 or 7 years.
She has Addison”s Disease, which makes it dangerous for her to travel since she needs regular injections of Cortisol, because she reacts to stress and to excitement without the physiological tools which keep most of us from literally panicking to death.
Despite all of this, shes effortlessly joyful and playful, and only stopped acting like a puppy about 3 years ago.
She”s my best friend and my mother and my daughter, my benefactor, and she”s the one who taught me what love is.
I can”t come to South America. Not now.
When I got back from the last leg of the US tour, there was a big, big difference.
She doesn”t even want to go for walks anymore.
I know that she”s not sad about aging or dying. Animals have a survival instinct, but a sense of mortality and vanity, they do not. Thats why they are so much more present than people.
But I know that she is coming close to point where she will stop being a dog, and instead, be part of everything. Shell be in the wind, and in the soil, and the snow, and in me, wherever I go.
I just can”t leave her now, please understand.
If I go away again, Im afraid she”ll die and I won”t have the honor of singing her to sleep, of escorting her out.
Sometimes it takes me 20 minutes to pick which socks to wear to bed.
But this decision is instant.
These are the choices we make, which define us.
I will not be the woman who puts her career ahead of love and friendship.
I am the woman who stays home and bakes Tilapia for my dearest, oldest friend.
And helps her be comfortable, and comforted, and safe, and important.
Many of us these days, we dread the death of a loved one. It is the ugly truth of Life, that keeps us feeling terrified and alone.
I wish we could also appreciate the time that lies right beside the end of time.
I know that I will feel the most overwhelming knowledge of her, and of her life and of my love for her, in the last moments.
I need to do my damnedest to be there for that.
Because it will be the most beautiful, the most intense, the most enriching experience of life I”ve ever known.
When she dies.
So I am staying home, and I am listening to her snore and wheeze, and reveling in the swampiest, most awful breath that ever emanated from an angel.
And I am asking for your blessing.

I”ll be seeing you.
Love, Fiona

…because her dog”s dying. Koo-koo, koo-koo. Her Facebook message inside.

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Date: 11/20/12 05:55 PM

61 Responses to Fiona Apple Cancels Her Current Tour [Pic & Text]

  1. Profile photo of fancylad
    fancylad Male 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 5:46 pm
    Link: Fiona Apple Cancels Her Current Tour - ...because her dog`s dying. Koo-koo, koo-koo. Her Facebook message inside.
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    taelmx Female 18-29
    247 posts
    November 20, 2012 at 6:10 pm
    I don`t think it`s that crazy...I get it, she has different priorities.
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    DingDingDong Male 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 6:11 pm
    I started reading it thinking "what a joke, for a dog?" I ended it thinking that she made the right choice...good for her.
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    Howler81 Male 30-39
    320 posts
    November 20, 2012 at 6:18 pm
    What`s koo-koo? Frankly, the way she wrote that, I wouldn`t be terribly upset even if I`d bought a ticket, and I`m not an "animals are people, too" sort of guy. This is a relationship that`s important to her, and it`s her decision to make.

    The thing is, as fortunate as she has been with her music career, and as much passion as she has for it, and as much as she owes to fan support, it is still her career, her job. Who, at the end of their life, looks back and says, "I wish I`d worked more instead of spending a few moments at home with loved ones (even dying animal loved ones)?"
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    McThstlpnts Female 18-29
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    November 20, 2012 at 6:19 pm
    The only crazy part in my opinion is.."Sometimes it takes me 20 minutes to pick which socks to wear to bed." But other than that I don`t think this makes her crazy at all. When you have had a companion (be it a cat, dog, bird, w/e) for such a long time their loss is just as hard as losing a human loved one. When I lost my cat of 17 years (got her when I was 3) it was like losing my left arm...she was always with me.

    Plus this could be a way for her to cope...
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    woomanfoo Male 18-29
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    November 20, 2012 at 6:20 pm
    Wait wait wait....She wears SOCKS to BED?! This chick is wackadoo.
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    YugureKage Female 18-29
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    November 20, 2012 at 6:21 pm
    Um...I could kind of understand this, where she`s coming from. I love animals, and sometimes animals can be family. As much as I LOVE dogs though, I`m not sure that I would be that attached to my dog (whenever I get one)... but that might be because I have a steady boyfriend of 5 years and going. I just hope that she didn`t like...buy the dog sweaters or anything. I HATE when people do that. I truly believe that best relationship with a dog is to let it be a dog. It`s a companion, a friend, a family member, but still a dog. It doesn`t need sweaters or diamond collars. It needs to swim and retrieve if it`s a Labrador. It needs to shepherd and round-up animals if it`s a boarder collie, and it needs to protect and guard if it`s a Great Pyrenees.
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    HalfPintRoo Female 18-29
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    November 20, 2012 at 6:24 pm
    While I`ll admit she used different words then I would have, I can relate and understand her true love for her best friend. I`m dealing with my Maggie aging as well and I will be there for her just the same.
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    YugureKage Female 18-29
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    November 20, 2012 at 6:25 pm
    so that turned into a rant against dressing up dogs...sorry about that. Lost my main point. Which is basically, this isn`t crazy. I wouldn`t respond in the same way, but no one would. Her response is her own, her choices are her own and I am sure her fans will understand.
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    piperfawn Male 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 6:28 pm
    Fiona you are a rare example of real human kind.
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    MrOrange Male 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 6:29 pm
    I would do the same thing without any form of hesitation, and i admire her bravery for allowing people to see her sadness and love she felt for her companion, with the knowledge that some immature folks are gonna riducule you (yeah i`m looking at you fancy) The part that worries me is indeed the bit about the socks, thats a bit .... koo koo
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    msieg007 Male 18-29
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    November 20, 2012 at 6:33 pm
    Crazy? Have you ever owned a dog?
  13. Profile photo of Faelwen
    Faelwen Female 18-29
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    November 20, 2012 at 6:49 pm
    Her wording at some points were strange but I would be doing the exact same thing as her. There is a reason dogs are called mans best friend. They are special creatures who just love you unconditionally and I don`t understand how some people can`t see that.
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    PTPete Female 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 6:58 pm
    Good for her--lucky Janet, she`s truly loved.
  15. Profile photo of Profworm
    Profworm Male 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 7:03 pm
    If her dog is suffering that much, she really should have it put to sleep. She thinks it`s going to be a peaceful and poignant moment, and it isn`t. It`s a horrid thing watching an animal drown to death in its own lungs.

    Too many people worry about what sort of person it makes them to have a pet put down, but believe me... It`s a mercy.
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    CoyoteKing Male 18-29
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    November 20, 2012 at 7:14 pm
    who? this the character from shrek? the girl ogre.
  17. Profile photo of sutra46
    sutra46 Female 40-49
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    November 20, 2012 at 7:55 pm
    That is touching.
    I would not leave my dogs side when she is Iill either.

    Dog`s don`t have a concept of economical obligation. People will understand, they have a concept of unconditional love.
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    FoolsPrussia Male 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 7:57 pm
    Crazy? What`s the matter with you?
  19. Profile photo of jinxjinx34
    jinxjinx34 Male 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 8:10 pm
    you suck fancylad.
  20. Profile photo of Gerry1of1
    Gerry1of1 Male 50-59
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    November 20, 2012 at 8:14 pm

    Who the hell is Fiona Apple?

    Never mind. I don`t care.
  21. Profile photo of auburnjunky
    auburnjunky Male 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 8:19 pm
    I love dogs, but.... It`s a dog.
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    Dead-Kittens Male 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 8:20 pm
    When that dogs life finally blinks its going to have a last minute `scramble for life`panic attack and rip her face off. Sweet sentiment though and Id totally hit Fiona. just sayin`.
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    whodat6484 Male 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 8:20 pm
    Nothing wrong with that, you`re a douche Fancy.
  24. Profile photo of psychoti
    psychoti Male 18-29
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    November 20, 2012 at 8:29 pm
    I actually respect the decision, the dog is obviously very important to her personally.
  25. Profile photo of LadyMorgue
    LadyMorgue Female 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 9:05 pm
    As someone who has lost a best friend (who happened to be furry and have a tail), I can understand this and respect it.
  26. Profile photo of Magickrat
    Magickrat Male 40-49
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    November 20, 2012 at 9:19 pm
    Keep in mind, Trent Resnor did the same exact thing with Nine Inch Nails MID-TOUR when his dog fell out of a hotel window & was killed...
  27. Profile photo of Enjin
    Enjin Male 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 9:22 pm
    Shocked to learn that she is still recording music and touring.

    I`d like to think that if my dog required injections on a daily basis, was on the verge of panicking to death and had a tumor I`d have the balls to end her suffering.
  28. Profile photo of Beaux66
    Beaux66 Male 40-49
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    November 20, 2012 at 9:36 pm
    You have a cold black heart, fancylad.
  29. Profile photo of auburnjunky
    auburnjunky Male 30-39
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    November 20, 2012 at 9:37 pm
    Would you Dead-Kittens?




    Just kidding. I would too....

    15 years ago.

    Look at them DSLs.
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    freddyferret Male 40-49
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    November 20, 2012 at 10:10 pm
    You have a cold black heart, fancylad.

    You`re obviously new here Beaux66. Everyone who`s been here a while knows that he`s a douche.
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    onoffonoffon Male 30-39
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    November 21, 2012 at 12:15 am
    That`s I`m cancelling my tour too.
  32. Profile photo of ferdyfred
    ferdyfred Male 40-49
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    November 21, 2012 at 12:31 am
    Never heard of her,
    but I can see wheres shes coming from
  33. Profile photo of ferdyfred
    ferdyfred Male 40-49
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    November 21, 2012 at 12:32 am
    Beaux66
    `You have a cold black heart, fancylad.`
    You dont know the start of it sir
  34. Profile photo of Reignblazer
    Reignblazer Male 18-29
    2334 posts
    November 21, 2012 at 12:41 am
    Yep. Definately crazy.

    It`s a dog..but clearly she`s convinced herself it`s everything that`s been missing in her life so she`s clinging on like a drowning man to a piece of timber. I`d hate to see what she`ll be like once the dog finally leaves this world.

    also this

    "I`d like to think that if my dog required injections on a daily basis, was on the verge of panicking to death and had a tumor I`d have the balls to end her suffering."
  35. Profile photo of den3jlb
    den3jlb Male 18-29
    364 posts
    November 21, 2012 at 12:49 am
    As a current dog owner, and having lost 5 or 6 dogs in the past, I see exactly where she`s coming from. The love for a dog is different to that of a human. Not better, not worse, just different. And when you lose your dog, it is different to losing a human. Again, not better or worse.

    Only a dog owner would be able to sympathise.
  36. Profile photo of ferdyfred
    ferdyfred Male 40-49
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    November 21, 2012 at 1:32 am
    Reignblazer
    Never had a pet dog/ cat then eh?
  37. Profile photo of ferdyfred
    ferdyfred Male 40-49
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    November 21, 2012 at 1:40 am
    had a Persian cat - smokie for 9 years, had a tumor when he was 6 spent thousands trying to sort him out, had to put him down in the end, and it killed me,still have his brother, it was his brothers response which hurt, smokie died a few years ago, and Winston (his brother) gathered him up in his paws and rubbed his face up to him, tis what killed me
  38. Profile photo of dogfeet
    dogfeet Male 30-39
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    November 21, 2012 at 1:51 am
    i happen to be a fan of fiona apple. only got into her stuff a couple of years ago, long after she left the limelight. she`s a talented singer/songwriter/musician who sadly got stuck with the label of being nothing more than a whiny rape victim. if the lyrics she writes reflect her personality, then i`m not surprised to see her write this letter. good for her, far too many people put their career far too high on their priority scale.
  39. Profile photo of Listypoos
    Listypoos Male 40-49
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    November 21, 2012 at 2:11 am
    I get it.

    When I was in my early teens I got a puppy...he was great - a black lab/doberman cross. When I joined the military I had to send him to my mother`s in scotland to live.

    Every time I got leave and saw him he`d do that `really excited-pissing-in-zig-zags` things that dogs do. Well one day I got the call that he`d got a tumour on his spine and I told my CO I needed the next day off as leave so I could get back to scotland to be with him at the vets when he was put to sleep. He gave me the leave straight away.....mind you he did say I was drating mad.



  40. Profile photo of Draculya
    Draculya Male 40-49
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    November 21, 2012 at 2:46 am
    Replace

    "I will not be the woman who puts her career ahead of love and friendship."

    "I will not be the woman who puts many thousand fans who have bought tickets, nor the many professionals who have invested time and energy in my tour ahead of love and friendship."
  41. Profile photo of Bredlom
    Bredlom Male 18-29
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    November 21, 2012 at 2:51 am
    Lol fancys all like `dance monkeys dance!`
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    SnoopyBG Male 18-29
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    November 21, 2012 at 3:10 am
    Having a cat I love very much I can see how she can feel this way and isn`t up to tours at the moment.
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    burbclaver Male 50-59
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    November 21, 2012 at 3:39 am
    TLDR, but it`s a dog for crisake. Get some proportion.
  44. Profile photo of MrOrange
    MrOrange Male 30-39
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    November 21, 2012 at 4:17 am
    @burbclaver

    She did, it might not be your proportion but it sure as hell is hers.
  45. Profile photo of Vimto
    Vimto Male 40-49
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    November 21, 2012 at 4:22 am
    "Koo-koo, koo-koo."

    Twat.
  46. Profile photo of Reignblazer
    Reignblazer Male 18-29
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    November 21, 2012 at 4:52 am
    @Ferdyfred

    Actually I`ve had both since I was 10, but I remain aware that they are animals and I don`t try and humanize them by attributing qualities I want to find in them like this lady clearly does.

  47. Profile photo of irunfast86
    irunfast86 Male 18-29
    402 posts
    November 21, 2012 at 5:05 am
    i`ve noticed fancy employs patrice wilson like tactics to get comments on his posts. she might be a emotional train wreck but shes not crazy. also, rescuing an dog brings way more of an emotional connection then buying a perfectly healthy dog from a puppy mill. little known fact: irunfast86 has emotions.
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    madest Male 40-49
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    November 21, 2012 at 6:30 am
    I don`t like the term "rescuing" a dog. You either get a dog or you don`t. You`re not rescuing anything. Makes dog ownership somehow sound heroic. It`s not. Dogs are mans greatest invention and all they want in return is companionship. Owning a dog that was bred for you is just as righteous as a dog that you pick up from the pound.
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    Oystah Female 40-49
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    November 21, 2012 at 6:38 am
    Oh that made me cry - I had to put my 18 year old cat to sleep in May becuase he also had a tumor - it could not be operated on and he was on meds and stuff since 2006 or so and did really well for the most part. He was such a sweet funny boy and I seriously could barely function for months. I can`t imagine anyone doing anything but what she`s doing. Sad.
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    Tiredofnicks Male 30-39
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    November 21, 2012 at 7:02 am
    Everything for a controversy eh, Fancy? Controversies generate clicks generates profits.
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    Zeegrr60 Male 40-49
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    November 21, 2012 at 7:46 am
    A dog is better than a human.Ms. Apple has my respect.
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    sicker Female 30-39
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    November 21, 2012 at 8:45 am
    I read this last night and got a little teary-eyed. My ex put our dog down last month and this was super relevant to my feels.
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    Geogypsy Female 18-29
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    November 21, 2012 at 9:05 am
    Wow, after reading this I feel emotionally nourished and inspired and ALIVE...that`s not going to last for very long is it?
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    cityncolour Male 30-39
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    November 21, 2012 at 11:14 am
    tldr; also, don`t care.
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    corywebb Male 30-39
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    November 21, 2012 at 11:45 am
    Koo-koo my ass. Postponing the tour is the most sane thing she could do.
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    burbclaver Male 50-59
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    November 21, 2012 at 12:04 pm
    I feel superior to inadequate people who place the love of animals on equal terms with relationships people. INHO animals should be eaten or ignored. They shouldn`t be imprisoned for our pleasure or anthropomorphized in ridiculous ways. We owe to animals to let them be animals, not subject to us.
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    GhettoNinja Male 30-39
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    November 21, 2012 at 12:54 pm
    @burbclaver Your opinion is not too humble when you are saying you feel "superior" to those of differing opinions.

    She did the right thing for her. I would do the same...
  58. Profile photo of burbclaver
    burbclaver Male 50-59
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    November 21, 2012 at 2:32 pm
    @ghetto... If you can get through all my typos, you`ll notice that the humble opinion referred to the second sentence. Not the first. I agree, anybody can do what best works for them. I can respect that right to be slightly inadequate.
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    PoptartinSD Female 40-49
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    November 21, 2012 at 4:28 pm
    The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated
    - Mohandas Gandhi

    She shows great compassion for an animal that she obviously loves with all her heart. What`s so koo koo about hat?
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    DrProfessor Male 18-29
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    November 21, 2012 at 5:30 pm
    it`s "Cuckoo", like the bird.

    But I think this is just sweet, and human.
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    NNoamfer Male 18-29
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    November 22, 2012 at 12:26 pm
    Seems fairly reasonable, she`s a human too, and can experience emotion. She is not your servant to make a show for you whenever you feel like it, she can do what she wants.

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